It’s been a month,again, since my last post.
& that last post was what I want this blog to be.
What I need need need it to be.
Honest unedited words just spilling out of my mind through my fingers onto the screen
Onto the screens of anyone who comes across this page
That’s a fucking terrifying thought to me
But it is also a satisfying one
Because I don’t want to edit myself
I want to be able to read this months, years from now & know that what I said here is exactly what I was thinking and exactly what I was feeling.
I want that for myself
And that’s who this blog was started for
& yes I want it to touch people
& I want it to mean something to someone
& I want it to be a non socially & personally damning representation of myself
If someone is offended
Why do I want them in my life?
Why should I care?
I won’t. I don’t. I can’t.
I can’t, because I legitimately feel that those people, that type of person, is detrimental to my soul & to who I am & to who I want to be.
So, yes, this may become a chaotic mess of emotion.
& yes, it may become more real
More brutally honest than most people would like
But it will just that.
It will be real
It will be honest
It will be me.
& I’m done being anything other than those things.